Positive thoughts please

Many thanks star and dreamer, I'm feeling better already!

Two weeks is a long time to wait, but I had to wait four months for my initial appointment, which was almost harder.  In the hospital last Tuesday they seemed pretty sure it was cancer.  Was an awful shock.

I have to go for a full bodyscan next Thursday and be injected with a low dose of radium it acts as a tracer, or something.  Not looking forward to it anyway!

much love xxxx

How is your mum doing? xxx

Thanks so much Gemini, you are an angel.

I'm so glad your mum's ok, Cornovii Queen, I think I will phone up tomorrow as I'm getting in an awful panic about this scan on Thursday, I think it could've at least waited till after my results came through.

Thanks Citychick, for your love and support it really means a lot.

And Thanks Kirsty for sending healing.  I do hope I won't have to read that book, but I will if my results are positive.  I'm going to try everything I can, lots of alternative therapies and suppliments along with conventional. 

I really feel very lucky to know you all.

I hope your husband's feeling much better tonight, Kirsty.

Love and light xxxxxx

Thank you Jackieb, I hope you're right, I hope it is just a scare, but they seemed so certain in the hospital.

Anyway, fingers crossed.

Lots of love xxxx

Thanks so much seastar, I really appreciate your healing and positive thoughts. 

Yes it's a horrible time, I still can't quite believe it's happening, i'm always in such good health!  It's going to be such a shock for my friends, I'm dreading telling them, and much worse telling my boys and my dad.

Two friends who I haven't seen for quite a while both phoned me today and said they'd been thinking about me a lot lately but neither of them could quite work out why.  I'm wondering is some sixth sense knocking on their door.

And thanks so much Gemini, I will deifinitely get some of those crystals. Have you seen the greenwitch website?  It's really good, I'm sure she will have some of those stones. www.greenwitch.ie I think that's it.

I'll carry the crystals about with me, maybe in a little bag.  I have a piece of moonstone in my pocket at the moment, I felt sort of drawn to it but it's not one of the crystals you mentioned.  In fact maybe moonstone's a bit too greenish to be in my pocket so i'll take it out.

Many thanks again

Lots of love xxxxxx

I gave the wrong address for the greenwitch website, it's actually www.greenwitch.co.uk in case anyone's interested.

xxxxx

Thanks so much Kirsty,

It's a bone scan, and claustrophic because someone told me the scanning plate passes a couple of centimeters above your face, I appreciate your thoughts on coping because I'm feeling a bit panicky about it.  I will just shut my eyes and try to drift.  And hope it doesn't show up anything else!

I'll most likely have a CT scan as well, but not on the same day.

Many thanks and much love xxxx

Thanks so much Anghou and Alison,

I really appreciate your support it makes such a difference.  I'm looking into all sorts of alternative therapies, I've ordered a jug with a filter that turns the water alkaline, apparently cancer finds it hard to grow in an alkaline body, and a louise Hay cancer healing cd, and I will take apricot kernels with pineapple juice which is apparently powerful against cancer.  And Essiac tea which clears the chemo out of your system when you're having a break so you don't feel so sick.

So far I have found that the hospitals here are not much into alternative therapies and not at all holistic.  So I appreciate hearing and talking about alternative therapies here with people who will not think i'm a bit daft! 

I will be asking the angels and guides for help, and my mum and brother who both died of cancer.  I told my boys this evening, which was so difficult, and dreading telling my dad.  Telling people is awful.

Much love xxxxxxx

Thanks so much Gemini, it makes such a difference to know you're all thinking about me.

I'm feeling quite horrible this evening and not much escape from it.  But I suppose things get better eventually.

Anyway great to have your support.

Love and thanks seabee xxxx

Thanks so much Heather and Jackieb,

I've got to tell my dad today and it's even harder than telling my boys.  You can reassure children, but dad's 91 and, as I think I already said, my mum and brother both died from cancer and he's just made an amazing recovery from it.

My dad's quite inspiring really, he doesn't look old, still driving and playing golf, he's brill on the computer and texts the family in England.  All his friends are years younger than he is.  He's also spent the last two years building a boat, a kit boat it arrived in a big flat pack.  I'ts about 12 foot long, a small sailing boat, it's more or less finished now and he wants to try sailing it if we get any good days before winter really sets in.

Last year he was ten foot up ladder, cutting branches off a tree.  But he forgot to secure the ladder and it wobbled and he fell off...as he fell he began to wonder how many bones he was going to break, then he realised he was falling very slowly.  he landed on his back...on some logs!!! but the landing was very soft, he got up without an ache or a pain.  He firmly believes his guardian angel caught him in her arms and brought him down gently.  Isn't that amazing. 

Lots of love and thanks xxxxx seabee

Thanks so much star, yes, I've done reiki 1and 2 so can give reiki to myself, also have a friend who lives nearby whos done 1,2and3 so I can go to her too.

I'm just worried about all these scans I've got to have now in case it shows up anything else.  And my hair falling out.  Can't even contemplate that!

I'm vegetarian and have a quite a good diet.  Will keep improving it though. 

Thanks so much for the healing and positive energy, star it means a lot.

Love Seabee xxxx

Thanks so much Kirsty,

I'll definitely get that book.  I'm relieved to hear that hair grows back quickly, the thought of my long hair falling out is just awful.  My sons are already worrying about it, as fate would have it my oldest son learned all about cancer in school yesterday.

I hope I'll keep walking my dog throughout, and I know staying positive is important but i'm not sure i could be relentlessly positive all the time.  Perhaps thats ok too.

I haven't told dad yet.  I think i'll have to have my husband with me to tell him, or i'll never get the words out.

Love seabee xxxx

I told my dad, he was horrified, then got practical and dug out his healing with vitamins book and his vitamin catalogue and ordering me a lot of vitamins tomorrow!

Such a relief to have told him though.

Lots of love xxxx